Recommended listening soundtrack: “Fidelity” by Regina Spektor on Begin to Hope
Upon awakening the other morning, I looked underneath the blinds framing my bedroom window and found myself face to face with a thick fog obscuring my view.
Or so I thought.
As I started to walk away, all these fear based thoughts started going through my head. How will I get to work in fog as thick as “pea soup”- or “peanut butter” as Yukon Cornelius argued in the ever so famous claymation Rudolph Christmas special with our favorite misfit elf, Hermey.
“You eat what you like, and I’ll eat what I like.”
I then proceeded to walk through my living room only to find the mountain view as clear as I had ever seen it with an added spark from the morning sunlight. All I could ask myself in my own sleepy fog was, “how on earth could there be peanut butter thick fog (I prefer Yukon’s choice) on one side of my home and no fog on the other?”
Oh, wait! I realized then that the humidifier in my bedroom fogged up my window glass on the inside, and the foggy world I thought existed on the other side of the glass, only existed from my side. In that moment, all I could do was laugh at how much my foggy window was emulating my life. All you have to do is mix in your experiences and how they have molded an inner landscape unlike no other, and you find yourself observing through your own foggy glass. I create my own obscurations and sometimes I just cannot see clearly through them.
Filtered or Unfiltered?
There are certain foods that are processed and you can enjoy them either filtered, or unfiltered. Wine is one of them! Whether filtered or unfiltered, each has a different taste and/or a different appearance. In the same light, our experiences can act like those particles in unfiltered wine that can make or break our relationships with others. I ask myself, can I trust what I am perceiving and hearing from another person? Or do I need to take the time to reflect regularly on where inside myself I am creating a perception of the person in front of me? Is it a filtered or unfiltered perspective?
This week has been overwhelming with some tough decisions and experiences that forced me to look within myself deeply about human accountability and how our choices can really mold the life we experience. I have found myself agonizing over the fate of another, and releasing that agony in a newly discovered, greater wisdom within my heart. If I could take anything from my foggy experience, it is that each of us is gifted with a journey in life that is tailor made to our purpose, and what we want to learn on a deeper level. The only thing I can do is trust that their view through the looking glass, this human experience, will continue to be clarified in their connection to others.
“But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart.” ANTOINE DE SAINT-EXUPERY
For myself, I hope that the fog I create in this life becomes thinner and thinner as I continue to strive to remain more filtered in perceptions. If I can continuously see others and their experiences as something I can explore and gain a deeper understanding of their reality, I can in essence live a more helpful, peaceful life.
The other morning the fog initially seemed so powerful, but with one change in direction I realized it was not even real! Little did I know when I was a young child that the words of a cartoon gold prospector in Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer would come back to remind me that it is true- we all see the world in our own way but it is how we meet in the middle that will help us solve our dilemmas and remain dear, dear friends.