Sometimes this picture is the perfect physical expression of how I feel inside. When I look at this picture right now, I see a beautiful Buddha. A representation of the creative, divine nature of my being slowly emerging from the lanky, strong root system of an ancient tree obscuring my truth and happiness at this very moment. That’s right folks, I said it- an ancient tree rooted into the ground with all its might. Such are my old perceptions and belief systems that give rise to this feeling of helplessness and a desire to run like Forrest Gump from the fire I have created (2 Tom Hanks’ references in once sentence- yes!). Here I am, wrapped up in feelings that must be connected to a place where my ignorant mind dwells searching for an identity that doesn’t exist like a child playing a game.
I am face to face literally with this part of my existence that is grasping in the form of attachment to some perception of who I am supposed to be- yes this is really how I feel! This perception is the root I see in this beautiful picture, linked to a feeling of massive overwhelm. At times I simply wonder why life can feel like this grueling process of emergence when it has the potential to be so simple and easy. How do we move these roots of obscuration out of way? I hear myself singing the same old song of expectations on how I am “supposed” to be feeling.
It’s Process Time!
When you look at this picture, what do you perceive at this moment? Start with your feelings and ask yourself-
“What moment, person, or expectation do these feelings link to in my ignorant mind?”
Then breathe in the awareness you have shined into your heart.
Feel how simple it is to love yourself, no matter what you see in the world around you.
Ask to see any barriers you might be imagining between you and your greatest desires and imagine them easily dissolving in this love.
There is an excerpt from a poem by Anne Hillman in the book “365 Prayers, Blessings, and Affirmations to Celebrate the Human Journey” by Elizabeth Roberts and Elias Amidon that I’d like to share as it relates-
As we experience and accept
All that we really are…
We grow in care.
We begin to embrace others
As ourselves, and learn to live
As one among many…
Let’s Rock Big Love together everyone, we’re all we truly have on this human journey.