There is neither here-
There is only that which is written in the soul.
That is what you must share.
When I think about a “regular” day, it is easy for me to get caught up in the mundane activity that the ego-driven mind has created. Life as a formulaic, step-by-step process- it could be written down like a recipe, and if someone performed the steps they would be me. Or, would they?
Within every moment there is more happening between me and the other side of the planet, my simple mind could not conceive it all, yet it is all happening in the instant, within the instant. Life- constantly unfolding…changing…never stopping. I had this snap shot in my mind after reading this statement by Thich Nhat Hanh in his book Awakening of the Heart on emptiness recently-
“Each of the 5 rivers has to be made by the other 4. It has to coexist; it has to inter-be with all others.”
The five rivers being the five aggregates: form, sensation, perception, mental formation, and consciousness. This being said, each aggregate or river flowing within us has to contain elements of the other aggregates or rivers flowing within us. Nothing is independent of itself. And, we are “empty of a separate, independent existence.”
This being said, I felt like I was looking from above into a tall skyscraper with the top off. And as I looked in, I could see a system like a corporation working. Within the corporation are layers of departments each based on an idea, a subject. Then, there are people working in each department supporting the idea, dependent on one another as they operate. Each person has its own universe within them including the people they know and love. Then, they have their own mind chattering away, all day- day after day. Within their mind is their body. Their body is made up of organs, tissue, cells, living organisms while the mind is dictating life, while the nature, the essence of this being is slowly, deliberately becoming more apparent in a form of awareness. Thought becomes another thought- and then what? Life.
As I stepped out of the gym yesterday, there was a large shift in the wind. The sky was becoming darker, and as I turned the corner to get to my car, a rainbow was standing before me, filling the sky with its abundant beauty and hope. This rainbow reminded me of so many other rainbows- and thus began a continuation of thought and life, ever changing and all encompassing, again.
One of my most memorable moments with a rainbow came when I felt completely lost and hopeless in my existence as a human, being. I sat in my car at the grocery store on Columbia Pike in Arlington, VA, crying and asking my angels to please help me get out of my head and the funk of hopelessness. I cried, and cried some more. I finally felt a little relief and stepped out of my car, to again witness a large, brightly lit rainbow illuminating the sky in full color. At that moment, I felt the hope of transformation and gratefulness chasing out my self-inflicted demons.
How often do we forget that we are not alone, that we are not independent of one another? This is a reminder that no matter where you look, there is a rainbow somewhere giving hope to someone, who is deeply connected to you. Just look around you, and listen to your heart. You will see and hear whatever it is you need, to remember your essence, your divine nature. It just helps to be open. To be conscious of it, but it is always there.